Not The Easiest

Not The Easiest

Being an introvert is kind of hard sometimes. I feel that most people are extrovert and there’s so few introverts out there. I could be wrong because most introverts don’t announce themselves like extroverts do and we usually keep to ourselves and our own house, but I feel he can get a little overwhelming at times.

I feel like my friends and my family always want to hang out with me, I’m probably being a little over dramatic about that but that’s what it feels like because I don’t want to hang out as much if people want to hang out with me. I feel like I should know that I’m out with people more. I just don’t want to and it’s not like I don’t like my friends and family because I do I love them that’s why they’re my friends.  I love my family, it’s just that I need the time to myself. Labor Day is coming up and it’s a three day weekend and my brother and his family are coming into town for it and my dad is having a birthday party for my cousin so there’s gonna be a party sometime that weekend. Whenever my brother comes into town with his family he has my two nieces that live out of state. I miss them so much so I usually spend all weekend at my parents house when they’re visiting and my one niece always asks me to spend the night at my parents house so she can sleep with me and wake up with me in the morning and I never do and I feel so guilty about it but I’ve spent all day over there and I just want to go home and be by myself with my husband to sleep in my own bed. She doesn’t understand now why I don’t want to but I just hope one day when she’s older she understands why I never spent the night with her at her parents . This party that’s coming up for my cousin is not giving me anxiety because it’s just gonna be the family there and won’t be anything huge but I still feel like 50-50 I don’t want to go. That’s not gonna stop me from going because I am most definitely going. I’m just gonna probably freak out about it a couple days before hand will just be thinking about how great that it’s going to be once the parties over and I can go back to my own home. The funny part is I never get anxiety when my niece is coming I always look forward to hanging out with them and I spend literally the whole day at my parents house so at least I have that to look forward to.


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